But Lindsey’s not ashamed of her reputation. She knows she’s earned it—and she’s proud of it. After all, you only live once, right? In fact, she goes out of her way to make it known to every guy she comes in contact with, she’s available for the taking—the rougher, the better.
That is until Lindsey meets Lieutenant Zachary Davis, a man who refuses to treat her like the trash she believes she really is.
But can Lindsey change her impulsive ways and learn to value herself the way the Zach does?
Warnings: This title contains graphic language and extreme sexual situations as well as a girl with a slutty attitude bigger than Texas covering a haunted past, and a sweet, hot man in uniform dead set on rescuing her from herself.
I really don’t even know what to say about this book, my review is going to be full of spoilers.
First of all, I do not like having to write this review, it is only my opinion, and I mean no disrespect to the author, but I hated it. I’m in a horrified state of shock after reading it. I wanted to stop; in fact I did, but went back to it hoping that there was some form of redemption for this story. The blurb is a very loose depiction of what this book is about. It was hardly a story about a blossoming relationship where the knight in shinning armor rescues her from a life of bad choices, and more of a story about this girl who is on a warpath of attention seeking sexual destruction.
I don’t shy away from erotica, and I love dark gritty stories, but this was something completely different. The book follows Lindsey through the end of her senior year of high school, as she falls in love for the first time. Lindsey is incredibly inappropriate, she thinks that all men want is dirty talk and sex and she freely gives it out. She dresses in provocative clothes, talks, acts, and presents herself as a quick, easy, good time. Lindsey is mouthy with adults, and has a strained relationship with her mother who seems to be oblivious to the fact that her daughter is desperately crying out for help, and her stepfather turns out to the catalyst for all of her issues. The first 60% of the book was comparable to raunchy porn catering to those with rape fetishes. Lindsey is raped not once but twice during the book, both times by 3 guys, and she describes a previous rape committed by her stepfather. The first time, she says no, she puts up minimal resistance, and lets it happen. After the first group rape, you find out that it’s a game for her that she likes to say no, when she really means yes. The second rape scene involved one of the guys from the first time and two other guys. They put a bag over her head, tied her up, beat the crap out of her, raped her, and then relieved themselves all over her. This incident landed her in the hospital. In between these two scenes she hooks up with various other guys, one was a complete stranger that she deflowers in a bathroom, one is her high school principal who doles out expulsions in exchange for sex, and the other is one of the guys that raped her the first time. At no point in this book does she make any of them use condoms or even pull out, and she seems to enjoy masturbating to the taste of the remnants left in her after her encounters….this was just too much for me. It crossed from erotica into something gross and disgusting.
So aside from the copious amounts of sex that Lindsey has, the other component to this story is the budding relationship that she has with Zach, a Navy recruiter. Zach comes across as generally a good guy. He is several years older, and much more traditional then Lindsey. He wants to date her, where Lindsey immediately tries to get in his pants. This guy is good for her, and shows her that she is worth more then the label that she has placed on herself. He loves her, which is a new concept for her. What I didn’t like about this situation is that there was not one single reason that I could come up with that this guy would be interested in her. They meet in the principal’s office where she spreads her legs and tries to show him her goods, and then proceeds to loudly screw the principal while he sits outside the office. She tries to have sex with him on the first date, and every date after that, she begs him to have sex with her, physically gropes him, and dresses like a hoochie. She is mouthy, confrontational, and just does not display the qualities that a man looks for in a women to settle down with, so I just could not see what he saw in her or what the connection was.
So the book ends with an HEA, and it’s a mighty whopper of a cliché. Following Lindsey’s second rape, she has a blow out with her stepfather where its revealed that he raped her, got her pregnant, forced her to have an abortion, and she now can not get pregnant. She moves in with Zach, and shortly after, he deploys, and then proposes to her when he comes back at which point she reveals that she is magically pregnant. And of course they are thrilled and happy they are starting a family and Lindsey is saved and everyone is happy.
Everything about this book rubbed me the wrong way. If you took out all the sexual elements then the backbone of the story, being the relationship between Lindsey and Zach, is still underdeveloped and unrealistic. If you take away the relationship and focus on the sex then it’s just wrong on so many levels. This book was an epic fail for me. I can say, however that the editing was spot on, and the writing was very well done, but I will forever have the image of Lindsey sucking on her dirty underwear, something that I desperately wish I could erase from my memory.
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