Do you see that woman there?
The one with long, wavy blond hair and blue eyes that used to sparkle?
That’s me, Violet Moore.
Do you see those men over there?
One is my husband, Rob.
A man who claimed he loved me, but proved his fist loved me more.
The other is Tucker McCloud, my savior and confidant.
I'm torn between what's right and my own fear.
But not anymore.
I’m taking my life back now.
I will fight back.
I will be happy.
Talk about an emotional roller coaster! Wow. This was not exactly what I was expecting when I started this book. It was dark. It was filled with angst. It was extremely sad. However, it showed the truth behind domestic abuse. It felt way too real. This story was so painful and the subject matter was emotionally hard to read. Yet, even though it was difficult to read, it was extremely hard to put down. I found myself fighting with Violet throughout her journey for a second chance at life.
Rob was Violet’s dream guy. He was perfect. He was the best actor while they were dating and Violet found out a little too late on their honeymoon just the guy Rob actually was. After her first black eye (and his promise of never doing it again…blah, blah, blah), her life takes a horrible turn. He distances her from her friends and family. He moves them to his home state hundreds of miles away from her Mother. She is stuck with him and afraid for her life. Every day she lives in fear of what he might do to her or someone she cares about. Until she meets her new boss, Tucker.
I ABSOLUTELY fell in love with Tucker’s character. He had a heart of gold and wanted to help her no matter what. Even when she refused to tell him the truth about her husband. Even when she refused to accept his help. He was there. Violet pushed him away, but he kept on coming back in hopes of saving her. He shows her what love is supposed to be like and he eventually helps her escape her hell. He waits for her so that she can have plenty of time to put herself back together and to love herself again knowing that is the only way they will have a true shot at happiness together. This guy was amazing.
"I promise I'll never let you down. I'll never hurt you, I'll only love you. You deserve better than what he gives you. I can do better. I can give you the world because you are my world. I'm laying it all out, Violet. I love you and I need you to take a chance on me. Leave him. Be with me."
Violet is another story. She was a completely broken woman. She was so scared and torn down. She was very weak. There were times I was like, “just get out of there you idiot!” and could not comprehend her thought process. However, I have personally never experienced abuse, so I think it was just hard for me to grasp why someone could stay after the first sign of violence? As I kept on reading, I have a totally new understanding of domestic abuse. I felt sorry for Violet and understood where she was coming from. I just wished her “strength” would have come sooner in the story. It was very hard to keep on reading about her getting her ass kicked (physically and emotionally) by her husband and how scared she was all the time. I have never cried so much while reading a book. There is one part where her husband rapes her that utterly shattered me. Thankfully, it wasn’t too long after that part where she starts growing some balls and gets serious about getting out of her situation and starting a new life.
"No woman should feel like she isn't worth the love of a good man and if for some reason you hear my story and think you can't get out, let me tell you, you can. It won't be easy and you'll want to quit, but you can do it.
You can succeed. Leave fear at the door and just jump in. The world is at your fingertips and you deserve it.
You can be happy, you know? Don't ever forget that."
Look, this wasn’t an “OHHH MMM-GEE, YOU HAVE TO READ THIS!” book, but it is definitely worth taking the time to read. The editing was horrible. Like I stated above, I wanted to hear more about Violet escaping her husband and felt the book went too far and too long into the abusive relationship. It was raw, dark, and gritty, but there was a happily ever after for Violet and Tucker. What started as a horrible fight turned into a wonderful victory.
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