***This novel contains graphic sexual content and harsh language. It is only appropriate for adult readers age 18+.
Have you ever been so angry that hitting things felt good? Or so numb that you actually felt high? The past few years have been like that for me. Traveling between fury and indifference with no stops in between.
Some people hate me for it, while others are scared of me. But none of them can hurt me, because I don't care about anything or anyone.
I love her so much that I hate her. We used to be friends, but I found out that I couldn't trust her or anyone else.
So I hurt her. I pushed her away.
But I still need her. The sight of her centers me, and I can pool all of my anger into her. Engaging her, challenging her, bullying her...they are my food, my air, and the last part of me that feels anything human.
But she left. She went to France for a year, and came back a different girl.
Now, when I push, she pushes back.
It’s 2 a.m. and I just finished reading this captivating story…and I’m grinning ear to ear like a freaking loon. I thought I loved the first book, Bully, but Until You completely OWNED me. Jared’s story was absolutely amazing.
I want to emphasize that this was NOT the re-telling of Bully from Jared’s POV. There was so much more to it. We go through a journey with Jared while Tate was away in France and his reaction when she finally returned. You feel his pain, anger, sadness, HATE, and hurt. But mostly, you feel his love for a girl he met when he was 10 years old.
“And when I thought of how I could’ve felt all of this by simply being close to her rather than hurting her, I was planted-no, stuck-to the ground by the weight of wasted time.”
I was heartbroken on Jared’s thought process. We find that, due to his father mainly, he feels worthless and uncared for. He even thinks that his best friend, Tate, doesn’t really care about him. He thinks he is destined to be his father.
‘”What’s wrong inside of you?” I growled. “Is it broken, dead, or just numb?”… “Don’t you know Jared?” he asked. “You have it, too. And so will your useless kids. No one wants us. I knew I didn’t want you.”’
We also learn more about his brother and everything that went on the summer he visited his Dad. I enjoyed discovering about what really went down with K.C. and Jared. Most importantly (at least to me anyways), we find out what happened with Jared before and after the video was sent.
Until You goes beyond where Bully left off and so much more is told about all of the characters: Jared, Tate, Madoc, Jax, K.C., Tate’s Dad, and even Jared’s shitty Mom. Speaking of Jared’s shitty Mom…after hearing Jared’s story, she doesn’t seem as shitty anymore. I think I’ve decided to upgrade her to just a bad mother and horrible decision maker.
“You were the gift, Jared. The light. Your father was the hell. I thought I loved him…But I was young and immature. I thought I knew everything. Drinking was my escape, and I abandoned you. You never deserved that. When I saw Tate trying to make you happy that night, I let her…For years, I knew you were sneaking over there to sleep, and I let it go, because she made you happy when I failed.”
Let’s not forget about the love scenes. I thought they were hot in the first book, but hell, there were more in this book and, coming from Jared’s POV, a heck of a lot more detailed. Their chemistry is off the charts and I love how Tate affects Jared to where he can barely control himself. How he always wants to touch her or hold her, even if they aren’t making love. *sigh*
I seriously could go on all day about how this is a book that BEGS to be read, but then I’d just sound redundant. Ms. Douglas has earned an all-time favorite author award from me. Her writing is effortless and I will read every book she decides to whip up. Hands down. I am counting down the days until the next book in the Fall Away series comes out. Now, make sure you read Bully first, then snatch up this bad boy and prepare to be “wowed.” Fan-Freaking-Tastic.
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